Time to Move On

Guest post by Leigh…

Some time back, SA-ET announced she had no dog in this race. Since then the dogs have multiplied, and the fighting has become very personal, very personal.

Now I am not referring to those on the outside, that’s pretty much expected. Since being banned at Pam’s House Blend, certain information that was specific to my account has been…shall we say leaked. The usual suspects are top of the list on that, but suffice to say that Pam’s House Blend is not a trustworthy site in my opinion. It’s ironic isn’t it that those that will control us and include us against our will, those that piss and moan about the rights of everyone, that holds the rights they seek is justice for all, would turn around and leak personal information. I know it leaked from them because I have separate email addresses specific to those types of sites, all unique.  But hey, it’s nothing new.  They are an unscrupulous bunch to start with, and they have pretty much shown over the years that they will use every dirty trick in the book against us, against our government and against society as a whole to get their way.  I personally hope they never get their way. Some amongst us say they deserve all the rights they want. I say they deserve nothing!

However, I am not here to talk about the homosexuals and what we know about them; I am here to talk about what is going on in our own ranks.  Recently, Aria Blue closed her site.  In a private email to me she talked about the smear campaigns that was set up against her.  She spoke of people like Liz (Notes from the T side),  a long term woman of history that has more than a fair share of TG readers.  Liz launched an all out war on Aria to discredit her.  Aria showed me the CAMH references to some of the people that have tried to infiltrate our group.  Others have done exhaustive cross references on some of the people we thought to be on our team; they have come up with some interesting results. Liz, on her website, speculated on outing Aria Blue, bouncing back and forth on whether to publish pictures she says come from a reliable source.  June Hingle, a complete fake and tranny stalker that goes back many years, offered those pics to Evangelina.  Evangelina’s response was to tell Hingle to shove them where the sun doesn’t shine.  All the same, there has been wild speculation amongst some of our own, that Evangelina AKA Carolyn was at the root of all evil, a master fake with many aliases and up to no good. For what it’s worth I don’t believe any of it.

Recently, another person amongst us decided to start stalking me on the internet. This culminated in what amounted to a death threat. I am not afraid of this person but having read an email from them in another account I own and infrequently check, I am not inclined to let bygones be bygones. While I was willing to patch things up, I no longer feel inclined to do so. Personal attacks against my friends will never be tolerated. You know who you are.

All of this has considerably tainted my view of the mental health of some of these individuals and what they are capable of.  I always knew of course, there were a lot of seriously ill people in the trans world.  It used to be that any mental health issues were reason for denial by the old gatekeepers.  The more I look, the more I see and to paraphrase Brad Pitt in the movie Inglorious Bastards, “cousin … business is a boomin”.  Part of my last article here, highlighted this.   I think it is way worse than even I had imagined.

It is one thing to debate the issues, to fight for our right to not be assimilated into the gay world, but really, is it worth all that many of us have worked for?  As Dyssonance is so fond of saying about me, “you have yours and you don’t care about others.” You know what, she is absolutely correct.  I do have mine, and from a long time back when the world was sane, when we had some human kindness, dignity and respect for others.  I still have that, but I am a realist, and I see that my values are gone, along with my generation, we are being replaced with those that have no values, those that will do whatever they will and laugh as the knife goes in. It’s a wicked world, there are wicked people, and the trans world has a disproportionate share of whackos.

I have fought the good fight alongside those I thought were friends. I have no idea now who the friends are, where the line gets drawn, how many are sockpuppets, how many are just plain evil.  It’s time for me to leave it all behind. I do have mine, and to hell with the rest of them. If they want to redefine everything, who am I to stand on the shore trying to hold back the tide.  I have my own life to live.  This will be my last post, here or anywhere else.

Its time for me to move on.